When asked what I would say to you, I simply nodded. I said that I would hate you for eternity, for what you’ve done. However, in my heart, that is not what I feel. I am lost without you. I don’t even know where to begin. If I could say those words to make everything right, I would. Yet, I don’t. I will never know. That kills me, no; it destroys me, inside.

These past few months, they have been hard knowing I don't know what went wrong. Your scent still lingers around me, your memories I can't let go. One week might not be nothing to you but it feels like a life time. 

  There have been times when I was haunted by my memories, tormented, as if they were mocking me! There were times when I’d have nightmares of them. Then I would dream of you. Yes, I’ve dreamt of you. Many nights I have. It hurt to see your face in my dreams. It hurt to see my past replaying in my head, but I still dreamt. I dreamt of what I would say if, I ever saw that sweet face of yours once more. Of what I would do to make you love me as you did before. Nay, that is not what I want. I don’t want to love you. It destroyed us. Love is what tore us apart. I loved you too much, and it ruined our lives. Because of love, I am scarred for life. Therefore, I do not wish it any longer.

            I have tried, and failed. I have left messages. At least, I have tried. I’ve only ever yearned to hear your melodic voice once more. No, I’m not attached. I’ve done my best to move on with my life. Yet there is still a calling within me that wonders how you are doing. How can I live my life without you in it? How can you not give me a chance to be the one.....